I am emotionally shutting down,
I never asked people to talk to me,
But here I am having to justify myself,
Can people not see I want to be alone?
I don’t need to be loved,
Cos love means I have to show feelings,
And my emotions are dead,
I am just a dark shadow,
Devouring everything good in it’s path,
Who needs love or friendship?
When your demons are taking your soul!
By Andrew Evans January 26th 2014
Picture from Google images, would like to give credit to the person who supplied the picture.
I have tried to speak out,
but no sound escapes,
here I am trapped in a mind of despair,
All I see is black,
A cold emptiness closes around my body,
I shiver as I know it’s coming…..
I hear the voices, even though I am trying to drown them out,
My body freezes…knowing what’s going to happen….
Please dont, no dont I’m just an innocent child……
Some one please explain to me why?
As I look down at myself….
seeing the tears being sobbed,
so helpless and scared,
why inflict these acts of sin on me…..?
You have ripped into my soul,
left me open and exposed to the world,
How can I begin to repair this damage?
When my heart is emotionally appalled,
Never knowing why……?
How can you ask me to act like this never happened?
When the scars speak for themselves,
For here I am an adult,
Unable to show love,
When all I have is hurt and anger!
By Andrew Evans 20th January 2014
A friend never turns away,
They grab your hand as you start to fall,
To hold you tight,
to wipe away the tears of sorrow,
they know you are feeling sad without ever a word being said….
They bring Joy on a dark day,
With their smile and laughter,
bringing joy into our life,
Friends share our dreams and our deepest fears,
For they are here to share our highs and the lows,
For they love us for who we are,
Giving us love that fill our hearts….
For friendship is something that we should hold dear,
Cos even death can’t tear friendship apart.
By Andrew Evans
It is there lurking, in a dark corner of my mind…..putting me in a place I dont wont to be, good days & bad days, altering my waking thoughts, how can one cope in a world of madness? Depression is becoming my best friend, it sends me spirling out of control into a world of confusion, where things look so different….looking for the the rays of the sun within this doom, the light a distant memory of things that went before…..haunted by my own demons, taunting me at every opportunity, pushing and pulling in every direction…No one ever understands until they walk the same path, to feel the sorrow and the helplessness of ones abilities….to see the world in its full wonder and glory, for I shall overcome this demon, and shall rid myself of this dark despair, I await for my mind to be set free from its chains, for I have one last fight to face….To reach out and to find the true me in this world of confusion!
By Andrew Evans 29th Dec 2013